it seems everyone thinks they know something about misery these days, and it's leaking out all over the world. i was born to people who had hopes for me. i was born into a time when hope was cheap, commonplace. the mercury climbs and the bottom flakes out of the stock market and hope for anything just keeps costing more and more. i do not mean to say ridiculous things, but i have made myself out of dreams of the life i wanted.