yeah, i had my power shut off so i spent the three day vacation i got from work for independence day doing nothing but packing and then i slept my first night in the new place two days ago... i didn't have the kitty moved in yet and i've never actually lived by myself before and for the first time in my life i was actually really lonely... i didn't have many familiar things with me and the new place is small but has very high ceilings, which somehow makes it seem both clausterphobically small and depressingly remotely large at the same time...

So yeah eva has been without a phone or internet for a while. This is because she is moving from her mother's house. I am really starting to miss our late night phone calls. I miss hearing her tell me that she loves me before I go to bed. I miss hearing her tell me about her day and the weird people at the bakery. Most of all I miss just hearing her voice. Eva if you are reading this; find a phone and call me, I love you.

So I was leaving work today and I got caught in a massive storm while riding my bike. The only upside was that I was biking with a new friend from work so we yeah that was fun. I was really really soaked.

so my computer is fixed. it's pretty much been fixed for a couple of days but my mother was not planning on telling me because she's not sure she wants me using it and even though she talked before about giving it to me or letting me buy it when i moved out now she's upset with me it's her computer.

le sigh. i am so sick of all of this. i'll never think at the god of chaos, "bring it" at randomly again, even if i don't know why i thought it when i don't think at it usually.