alex bought me this dress for my last birthday. it's beautiful, (it looks a little less awesome in this picture but irl it looks similar to the baby jsk it's a replica of, and has shirring and some of those cross strap neck tie things lolita dresses sometimes have.) but it was kinda pricey so i'm trying to think of other ways i can wear it. already worn it with a white blouse, white tights, and black shoes, and with a black cardigan, and the bitching cameo my friend made me for christmas... (a black cameo on a white ribbon.)

posting this on polyvore, hoping to find some ideas.

miwako is a very cute, childish, pink haired senior in design school at the yazawa school for the arts. she's one of the main characters in the manga paradise kiss. you can read it for free online here.

i just got a form letter through email saying i did not get a sales position at a local clothing store, and i seemed to do very well at the interview. my best honest guess as to why i didn't get the position is because i don't "fit with the look." that is... all the girls i have seen working there were very thin, and i myself am not.

i am a bigger girl. i am not hugely, grotesquely fat, and i not only consider myself beautiful but so do a lot of other people. i have a few problem areas i'm not proud of, but then so do 99.9% of women. and for all you 4-chan surfing assholes who think that having tits and an ass instead of slight swellings stretched over bones which may, after she actually FINISHES puberty, be secondary sex characteristics who're now skipping this over and saying... "whatever fatty." i am not actually that big. my t-shirt size is xl and sometimes i can even wear things from the junior's department.

I am totally addicted to window shopping and http://wists.com/verdancyhime this site supports that really well, without making me broke. i think it's the site i update the most, even more than my blogs, which is kinda sad. i think sometimes women have to satisfy their searching/gathering food instincts and their hunting instincts by shopping and finding good deals and exotic things no one has ever seen before. this is a good substitute for that, people steal your finds if their good enough, so you even have a status thing. plus it helps me remember what i want to buy when i DO get money.

this is just a list of my current fashion obsessions. feel free to skip, tis image heavy. but i wanted to play fashion magazine writer for a minute.

well, a lot has happened since that last post, which got carried away in my fears pouring out of me before i got to mention that the reason it was called "i want to be the girl with the most cake" is because i was feeling so low and then i walked by this store where they were putting a brand new cake printed sweet lolita dress in the window! i went in and tried it on and it fit and then i got asked to model it for an ad in the paper! there's a kind of magic to clothes. ever since i understood that my life has really changed in ways i can't describe.

just to make me suffer, inthestarlight closed out all their super cool items i've been lusting and saving for and launched a new limited edition system full of new gorgeous things for me to want that don't always come in my size...

if i was two inches thinner i'd buy the pink skirt with the princess pattern and have no grocery money for the week... i don't need to eat, right? c'mon, there's even a bustle in the back!

*suffers*

it's too hot so i slog through the streets extra slow in my high heeled boots i have dragged out of my closet to teach my feet a lesson:
they are complaining because my new shoes dig into the backs of my feet and break the skin...
even when i wear my thickest black socks (gorgeous confectionary bobby socks dripping venice lace scallops like hearts, but also like spears... make a mental note that i need more of these when i get the money, they're too good.)the digging continues and the scabs turn black from the lint.

I just thought this was really funny. This is how you get your girlfriend into airsoft.

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