i feel whiny, moody, and self indulgent. largely, i would like someone to be happy with me, maybe to spoil me a bit, but all my efforts in this seem to be meeting with idiotic reasons for no one to notice i'm trying to be extra worthy of affection, so i am being ignored, which makes me pissy. that and the fact that i have a cough, and my ear is still all full of fluid, and neither one of them has any reason to be happening. i've started cleaning my ears more often, i don't go to the bakery anymore and breathe big lungfuls of flour and crap, my lungs should stop whining.