alex bought me this dress for my last birthday. it's beautiful, (it looks a little less awesome in this picture but irl it looks similar to the baby jsk it's a replica of, and has shirring and some of those cross strap neck tie things lolita dresses sometimes have.) but it was kinda pricey so i'm trying to think of other ways i can wear it. already worn it with a white blouse, white tights, and black shoes, and with a black cardigan, and the bitching cameo my friend made me for christmas... (a black cameo on a white ribbon.)

posting this on polyvore, hoping to find some ideas.

it seems everyone thinks they know something about misery these days, and it's leaking out all over the world. i was born to people who had hopes for me. i was born into a time when hope was cheap, commonplace. the mercury climbs and the bottom flakes out of the stock market and hope for anything just keeps costing more and more. i do not mean to say ridiculous things, but i have made myself out of dreams of the life i wanted.

i really like the look of decoden'd mobile phones, but they're just... well... they're too over-the top. i like the elegant aspect to lolita as well as the sweet aspect, and not only do i not want a phone which makes my boyfriend's eyes bleed, but i want one that wouldn't look out of place with my more simple, everyday gothic lolita attire. so what i want is a little, beautiful, but subtle decoration, not a phone that weighs five pounds because it's so full of whipped cream and rhinestones and glitter and cupcakes and strawberries. i'm thinking that if i got a black plastic case of the type you put over your phone to protect it and make it a different color... i think they're called faceplates? the guy in the mall sells them, but they're not black. anyway, if i got a simple, black plastic shiny case that covered my mobile phone, i could glue a few things to it instead of straight to the phone in case i got tired of it, and i could use all black, white, and silver deco pieces.

instead of something like this:

I am totally addicted to window shopping and http://wists.com/verdancyhime this site supports that really well, without making me broke. i think it's the site i update the most, even more than my blogs, which is kinda sad. i think sometimes women have to satisfy their searching/gathering food instincts and their hunting instincts by shopping and finding good deals and exotic things no one has ever seen before. this is a good substitute for that, people steal your finds if their good enough, so you even have a status thing. plus it helps me remember what i want to buy when i DO get money.

so everyone go check out the wisconsin lolita site alex made me. cuz he's awesome.

i'm having a really good day for once, and i can't think of much to say that's not stuff i might not want everyone knowing... i decided i do have a crush on one of the girls at my work... her name is kirsten and she's incredibly cute and funny and has nice handwriting and is an artist, but she's shy and i don't think she likes girls so i'm just going to be nice to her and enjoy her company.

well, a lot has happened since that last post, which got carried away in my fears pouring out of me before i got to mention that the reason it was called "i want to be the girl with the most cake" is because i was feeling so low and then i walked by this store where they were putting a brand new cake printed sweet lolita dress in the window! i went in and tried it on and it fit and then i got asked to model it for an ad in the paper! there's a kind of magic to clothes. ever since i understood that my life has really changed in ways i can't describe.

just to make me suffer, inthestarlight closed out all their super cool items i've been lusting and saving for and launched a new limited edition system full of new gorgeous things for me to want that don't always come in my size...

if i was two inches thinner i'd buy the pink skirt with the princess pattern and have no grocery money for the week... i don't need to eat, right? c'mon, there's even a bustle in the back!

*suffers*