Well life is getting shitty-good at the moment....my mom and dad are going through a horrible divorce, my family's falling apart, my grades suck, I think im in love and a BUNCH of other stuff.....It's like my mind can't decide how to feel. I know I should be sad or very angry over the divorce but I have no real feelings on it at this time. I should hate my dad for leaving us but, I just cant...I know I should, I know I need to, I just can't. I've seen my mom and my siblings go through so pain in the last 3 months....It makes me feel horrible.

I finally told him I'm done waiting.

I'm 32 and I have three children... I think that I deserve to be more to him than just a "girlfriend". The issue never would have become so big had he not promised a proposal.

When the semester is over, we'll talk about it further and see if wither of us feel any different.

I hope that we do, actually. I'd rather not leave him.

Either way... he'll always be my best friend... I think.

long, long ago when the world was new, there were no gods, only the spirits, who the shamans, the ones who had crossed the borders of the worlds could speak with. some of these were the spirits of trees and plants. some were the spirits of the animals who now walked, flew, swam, or crawled. some were the spirits of the animals who had walked thousands of years before men had, and still others were the spirits of our ancestors who had died, but the greatest and most powerful of these were known as "the people without bodies."

So yeah eva has been without a phone or internet for a while. This is because she is moving from her mother's house. I am really starting to miss our late night phone calls. I miss hearing her tell me that she loves me before I go to bed. I miss hearing her tell me about her day and the weird people at the bakery. Most of all I miss just hearing her voice. Eva if you are reading this; find a phone and call me, I love you.